I'm going to rant. If you're not the least interested in it, just pass this vulgar post.
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I first started out in SGC last year straight after PAE. I remember having to choose between the myriads of CCAs available within the school before I finally chosen to join SGC, including the Entree Council as well as Chinese Orchestra. When I finally decided on SGC, I was actually quite delighted with my choice, looks like it was going to be a fun year ahead. Enjoyable as well!
Then came to June, when the applications of the SGC Exco posts came around. For the sake of applying, I basically applied and got the Vice President position. It was a better spot than I expected actually, and I'm not going to be complaining about it. At least I do get a say in the activities of the CCA. Even Clinton agrees with me as she endorsed Obama today.
When we picked up the CCA from the seniors, it was in such shambles that I could not believe my eyes. Don't be nice and said something like, "It could be worse." I believe that Chih Hung would agree that SGC was in such a bad state that he himself felt embarrassed to have left us with such a state last year. How bad it was, I see no point to be sharing with the outside world, but those who know about the issue would understand.
And from there, the 5 of us in the Exco moved on. Despite our immense differences, we came together and dragged the CCA into heights within our own visions for the CCA. We tried to organize intra-school competitions, we held an open house to project our CCA in a way that differs from its stereotypical view, we even tried to change the school's view of the existence of an intellectual game that included poker cards.
The road wasn't easy at all, moving into the near year with new hopes, we were struck again with the departure of the teacher-in-charge of the CCA, Mdm Shih. With the other CCA teacher practically MIA(Missing in Action) and the new teacher unknown, we were really in doubt on how the club would continue in the future ahead.
With the new teachers coming in, it was great to realize that they are at least still decent teachers, willing to help us with needs. To tell you the truth, all that had to be done, was done. In my eyes, and from my experience working with them, they had worked with great efficiency and effectiveness that I'm really impressed by them. Such a great addition it was to the CCA!
And just when I thought the pace was picking up for the CCA, we were led to the discovery that the new year not only led to the emergence of new challenges, but the occurrence of more problems. From important issues of coach funding and CCA publicity, to minute issues of room usage and the status of the room's aircon.
And also in this year, was when I discovered how pathetic the team of SGC Exco 2008 was.
Bringing 5 people, of completely different character, different ideology. And completely no time to dedicate to the CCA. Some might say the first 2 problems may be a blessing in disguise, and all I have to say is, you've never been in that situation so shut the fuck up.
Imagine the exco, 5 completely different personalities and likes. While we all try to coalesce together as a group, we are reminded by how pathetic the improvement was as everybody went on to do their stuff. From H3, to photography, to Astronomy, to tuition, to extra lessons.
It was pathetic how we, the exco of the CCA, don't even get to see each other all together every week in the same room.
Adding to the shame is the fact that there's only 5 of us.
And thus, we have completely no time to step into that melting pot, and get to know each other. I stand here and I shall say to those that read this post. Have I not tried to arrange for SGC meetings with you guys since the start of the year? And if you still disagree, I ask, how many could you have made it for. For I dare say, the only time we met as a Exco, was in that particular tuesday during our first week of taking up the job, and we never met together again. If you think we're a nice and happy bunch of people that have no conflicts, think again, cause I was involved in one myself.
And as the year continued, the 5 of us started to drift further and further apart, away from the CCA itself.
And I dare say, up to the point, that I'm practically heading the CCA myself. Think that I'm egoistic if you want to, but I dare say that if I didn't do what I have done, SGC would have crumbled since March.
Think about who's been arranging the training with the coach, who's been telling you when's training, who's been opening the room every training, who has always came early and left late every training, who has distributed the info after that?
Let me put it in a simpler sense, just tell me, what have you done after JAE CCA take in.
I dare any one of you 4 out there to give me an answer. Have you negotiated with anyone, have you asked for sponsorships? Have you looked out for information on incoming competitions? Have you done any adminstration matters(Adelene has done this, thanks.)?
Have you thought about the Juniors?
In 2 weeks, its gonna be practically the end of our term in SGC as we know it. There will be NO MORE training. There will be NO USE in caring about it anymore.
But here I stand, and I ask you 4, aren't any of you 4 the least embarrassed in passing down SGC in this state to the juniors? NOT EVEN THE LEAST?
Funding issues, training issues, FOR FUCK'S SAKES, THE JUNIORS ARE TRAINING MORE THAN THE SENIORS.
I'm STANDING HERE, AND I SAY THAT I'M THE ONLY ONE THAT'S TRAINED MORE THAN ANY OF THE JUNIORS. CAN ANY OTHER J2s SAY IT?
WHAT A STUPID STUPID IMPRESSION FOR US TO GIVE TO THE JUNIORS.
And even today, we are only 1 week and 2 days away from the last competition we will ever have as Junior College bridge players. From here on, even if you wanted to, you'll never get to play in the Singapore Bridge Inter-School Competition again. Ask yourself, have you'all been training enough?
You'all complain, we're not good enough for the team, we're lousy, I've deproved.
THEN DO SOMETHING ABOUT IT, FOR FREAK'S SAKE. COMPLAIN TO ME GOT USE? TRAIN MORE, LEARN MORE. DON'T COME TELLING ME, I SUCK, I DON'T WANT TO PLAY THE COMPETITION CAUSE I WILL PULL THE TEAM DOWN. JUST FUCKING TRAIN AND PLAY YOUR BEST CAUSE NO ONE GIVES A SHIT ON WHETHER YOU'RE WEAK ONLY IF YOU'VE GIVEN YOUR ALL.
FUCK, YOU SEE ME AND SHAUN COMPLAINING ABOUT YOUTH PAIRS? WE DIDN'T WIN SHIT, BUT WE DID ALL WE CAN DIDN'T WE?
YOU CAN'T MAGICALLY IMPROVE BY SAYING YOU SUCK, CAN YOU?
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And now I look back at the post, and I wonder, why did I type this out. Its 4am, I could be sleeping happily in bed, but I still stayed up and typed it. In fact, the end of bridge is 1 week away. Why don't I just keep it in?
To tell you the truth, that did come across my mind long ago, and I had decided to keep it in, and never let the feeling show. Just let the sleeping dog lie, and never care about it again.
From next week, most of us would even QUIT bridge for life, so why am I really still giving a damn?
The truth is,
I dunno.
I really fucking don't.
..
Guess I just finally snapped.
..
I first started out in SGC last year straight after PAE. I remember having to choose between the myriads of CCAs available within the school before I finally chosen to join SGC, including the Entree Council as well as Chinese Orchestra. When I finally decided on SGC, I was actually quite delighted with my choice, looks like it was going to be a fun year ahead. Enjoyable as well!
Then came to June, when the applications of the SGC Exco posts came around. For the sake of applying, I basically applied and got the Vice President position. It was a better spot than I expected actually, and I'm not going to be complaining about it. At least I do get a say in the activities of the CCA. Even Clinton agrees with me as she endorsed Obama today.
When we picked up the CCA from the seniors, it was in such shambles that I could not believe my eyes. Don't be nice and said something like, "It could be worse." I believe that Chih Hung would agree that SGC was in such a bad state that he himself felt embarrassed to have left us with such a state last year. How bad it was, I see no point to be sharing with the outside world, but those who know about the issue would understand.
And from there, the 5 of us in the Exco moved on. Despite our immense differences, we came together and dragged the CCA into heights within our own visions for the CCA. We tried to organize intra-school competitions, we held an open house to project our CCA in a way that differs from its stereotypical view, we even tried to change the school's view of the existence of an intellectual game that included poker cards.
The road wasn't easy at all, moving into the near year with new hopes, we were struck again with the departure of the teacher-in-charge of the CCA, Mdm Shih. With the other CCA teacher practically MIA(Missing in Action) and the new teacher unknown, we were really in doubt on how the club would continue in the future ahead.
With the new teachers coming in, it was great to realize that they are at least still decent teachers, willing to help us with needs. To tell you the truth, all that had to be done, was done. In my eyes, and from my experience working with them, they had worked with great efficiency and effectiveness that I'm really impressed by them. Such a great addition it was to the CCA!
And just when I thought the pace was picking up for the CCA, we were led to the discovery that the new year not only led to the emergence of new challenges, but the occurrence of more problems. From important issues of coach funding and CCA publicity, to minute issues of room usage and the status of the room's aircon.
And also in this year, was when I discovered how pathetic the team of SGC Exco 2008 was.
Bringing 5 people, of completely different character, different ideology. And completely no time to dedicate to the CCA. Some might say the first 2 problems may be a blessing in disguise, and all I have to say is, you've never been in that situation so shut the fuck up.
Imagine the exco, 5 completely different personalities and likes. While we all try to coalesce together as a group, we are reminded by how pathetic the improvement was as everybody went on to do their stuff. From H3, to photography, to Astronomy, to tuition, to extra lessons.
It was pathetic how we, the exco of the CCA, don't even get to see each other all together every week in the same room.
Adding to the shame is the fact that there's only 5 of us.
And thus, we have completely no time to step into that melting pot, and get to know each other. I stand here and I shall say to those that read this post. Have I not tried to arrange for SGC meetings with you guys since the start of the year? And if you still disagree, I ask, how many could you have made it for. For I dare say, the only time we met as a Exco, was in that particular tuesday during our first week of taking up the job, and we never met together again. If you think we're a nice and happy bunch of people that have no conflicts, think again, cause I was involved in one myself.
And as the year continued, the 5 of us started to drift further and further apart, away from the CCA itself.
And I dare say, up to the point, that I'm practically heading the CCA myself. Think that I'm egoistic if you want to, but I dare say that if I didn't do what I have done, SGC would have crumbled since March.
Think about who's been arranging the training with the coach, who's been telling you when's training, who's been opening the room every training, who has always came early and left late every training, who has distributed the info after that?
Let me put it in a simpler sense, just tell me, what have you done after JAE CCA take in.
I dare any one of you 4 out there to give me an answer. Have you negotiated with anyone, have you asked for sponsorships? Have you looked out for information on incoming competitions? Have you done any adminstration matters(Adelene has done this, thanks.)?
Have you thought about the Juniors?
In 2 weeks, its gonna be practically the end of our term in SGC as we know it. There will be NO MORE training. There will be NO USE in caring about it anymore.
But here I stand, and I ask you 4, aren't any of you 4 the least embarrassed in passing down SGC in this state to the juniors? NOT EVEN THE LEAST?
Funding issues, training issues, FOR FUCK'S SAKES, THE JUNIORS ARE TRAINING MORE THAN THE SENIORS.
I'm STANDING HERE, AND I SAY THAT I'M THE ONLY ONE THAT'S TRAINED MORE THAN ANY OF THE JUNIORS. CAN ANY OTHER J2s SAY IT?
WHAT A STUPID STUPID IMPRESSION FOR US TO GIVE TO THE JUNIORS.
And even today, we are only 1 week and 2 days away from the last competition we will ever have as Junior College bridge players. From here on, even if you wanted to, you'll never get to play in the Singapore Bridge Inter-School Competition again. Ask yourself, have you'all been training enough?
You'all complain, we're not good enough for the team, we're lousy, I've deproved.
THEN DO SOMETHING ABOUT IT, FOR FREAK'S SAKE. COMPLAIN TO ME GOT USE? TRAIN MORE, LEARN MORE. DON'T COME TELLING ME, I SUCK, I DON'T WANT TO PLAY THE COMPETITION CAUSE I WILL PULL THE TEAM DOWN. JUST FUCKING TRAIN AND PLAY YOUR BEST CAUSE NO ONE GIVES A SHIT ON WHETHER YOU'RE WEAK ONLY IF YOU'VE GIVEN YOUR ALL.
FUCK, YOU SEE ME AND SHAUN COMPLAINING ABOUT YOUTH PAIRS? WE DIDN'T WIN SHIT, BUT WE DID ALL WE CAN DIDN'T WE?
YOU CAN'T MAGICALLY IMPROVE BY SAYING YOU SUCK, CAN YOU?
..
And now I look back at the post, and I wonder, why did I type this out. Its 4am, I could be sleeping happily in bed, but I still stayed up and typed it. In fact, the end of bridge is 1 week away. Why don't I just keep it in?
To tell you the truth, that did come across my mind long ago, and I had decided to keep it in, and never let the feeling show. Just let the sleeping dog lie, and never care about it again.
From next week, most of us would even QUIT bridge for life, so why am I really still giving a damn?
The truth is,
I dunno.
I really fucking don't.
..
Guess I just finally snapped.
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Ahh, bridge exco. Fucks everyone over.