I've had this very hard time before.
And even now, my heart is still hurting.
Really, really painful aching.

When I lose an important thing.
The pain still remain, and still hurts.
Still, I looked for her.

The one who likes me as I am.
The person only for me.
And...

I found her.

But finding her was the beginning of something more painful.
Even if I could do something,
it was painful to be close together.

Seeing that person in pain,
is painful.
Therefore, I
hid from that person.
I disappeared because I love that person.
But still,
Not seeing that person is even more painful.
Not being able to see that person again is much, much more painful.
I left her... Because I love her.
I'm leaving her because its for her own happiness.
Because I believe, that I am not good enough for her.

--- Fatboy.