The past few days has been a rather hectic one... With new situations reminding myself of lessons learnt from old ones in the past. Its almost like a year end exam from the guy up there, making sure that I do learn from my life, and remember my principles.
The A*Star attachment program was one. Its the exact same situation as the National Chinese Creative Writing Competition by the NLB. Where I did nothing, and was awarded the prize in Zhi Hao and Yu Jie's scarifice.
I remember swearing I'll never contribute anything in a team anymore. This time, Milton has done a lot due to my incapabilities in coding in the C++ language. I'm not going to let it rest, I will work and get something else done, rather than ending up as that day in 2003.
And for my next part... Can there be no replys please? Not even any discussion about the issue.
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I know its not a secret anymore. Everybody that knows me know about it already. Even Juila in Britian knows. Yet, while that's what you'all know. What you'all have seen me doing is only shunning the whole thing. Constant denial of my feelings, constant avoidance of the whole issue.
You may even think that the whole issue is not serious at all, just a 'touch and go' situation that you'all would see everyday with other 'active' students within the school.
Let me just put it through now. That if I wasn't serious.... You wouldn't be seeing this post here right now.
5 years I have stayed in silence, now I regret telling my close friends back then. This whole thing should not have started in the first place.
Not that I don't feel for her, but that she still has a long road of life before her.
I'm hardly the best flower to pick by the side of that long road for her.
So guys, I hope you'all like... Don't pull it up anymore alright?
If not for me, do it for her. Please.
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I will work in the darkness within the backstage, and perfect the play of your life. But, I'm not the one that should be taking the stage with you. You deserve a decent man, not me. I will stay as another nameless stage crew, and save you from every fall, as you continue, in that perfect play of your life.
The A*Star attachment program was one. Its the exact same situation as the National Chinese Creative Writing Competition by the NLB. Where I did nothing, and was awarded the prize in Zhi Hao and Yu Jie's scarifice.
I remember swearing I'll never contribute anything in a team anymore. This time, Milton has done a lot due to my incapabilities in coding in the C++ language. I'm not going to let it rest, I will work and get something else done, rather than ending up as that day in 2003.
And for my next part... Can there be no replys please? Not even any discussion about the issue.
..
I know its not a secret anymore. Everybody that knows me know about it already. Even Juila in Britian knows. Yet, while that's what you'all know. What you'all have seen me doing is only shunning the whole thing. Constant denial of my feelings, constant avoidance of the whole issue.
You may even think that the whole issue is not serious at all, just a 'touch and go' situation that you'all would see everyday with other 'active' students within the school.
Let me just put it through now. That if I wasn't serious.... You wouldn't be seeing this post here right now.
5 years I have stayed in silence, now I regret telling my close friends back then. This whole thing should not have started in the first place.
Not that I don't feel for her, but that she still has a long road of life before her.
I'm hardly the best flower to pick by the side of that long road for her.
So guys, I hope you'all like... Don't pull it up anymore alright?
If not for me, do it for her. Please.
..
I will work in the darkness within the backstage, and perfect the play of your life. But, I'm not the one that should be taking the stage with you. You deserve a decent man, not me. I will stay as another nameless stage crew, and save you from every fall, as you continue, in that perfect play of your life.
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