Christmas is coming up soon, a season of giving and recieving. But I ain't giving anyone anything this annual holiday.

Perhaps, as some people say, I really just got a learn to grow some balls. But this time, I just dun wanna do anything just for christmas.

There's no point in just giving something for the holidays. After what happened on monday, I know there is no mistake. I worry for her. I'm scared she gets hurt. In any way.

I shall, to the best ability, make every single of the 365 days in the world Christmas. Give without expecting to recieve.

=)